You cant always get what you want

I had a revelation via this song; it's so true. Life's not a fairy tale & I have to buck up & continue on, no matter what happens
I have to be strong & not let things bother me, but keep depth & substance

I have been strong, even cocky & this will soon even out

Phil called me. Yesterday we talked for two hours. Tonight I watched a movie & he called me but I missed the call because I didn't hear it ring. I wonder what he wanted to talk about
This isn't what I want or need but, god, it feels good! It's that time where I stay the course & keep on keeping on. He doesn't want to be with me & I don't want to be his tool
But what if we did live happily ever after?
We'd probably end up in some ironic situation like living in a trailer park with three kids, a pit bull & no money. But I do wonder if I'd be happy. I know our kids would be beautiful