Ian's-Day1

Ian's is great! Today was my first day on the job and it was quite the time. Me, stephen and Kyle were there for comp training from 2pm-5pm and then I worked 5pm-4am.

First of all I had this 'great' idea to stay up super late the night before so it would be easier to stay up the next night; then I could sleep in the next day. What actually happened was I got super drunk, stayed up two and woke up drunk in the morning with one of the worst hangovers of my life, bad cramps, and I could only sleep til 12 anyway. So Sophie left, I tossed and worried for a bit, threw up, went back to sleep for a bit, made a breakfast sandwich (of two eggs, two slices of cheese, two pieces of bacon-they say it's the cure for hangovers- and some mayo), then popped a vitamin, calcium pill, two aspirin, two Midol, and two fiber gummies. Then got to the business of getting ready. My stomach felt like shit while I showered but I was fine (and on time) when I got to Ian's. I also didn't look half bad ;] ... Maybe not as fabulous as I envisioned for my day but what can you do

Training went ok, a little boring but I did my best to stay focused. Then my job started and it was my job to man the phones for the night.

Paul-very helpful
Nick-very cute ('I'll see you in a bit!')
Marty-very professional but fun and understanding
Jack-very strict, a bit of a tight ass, nice and it was my first day
Ross-a bit too helpful, made be look lazy
Hailey-very nice
Cook-very nice
Up-front guy-a bit dismissive...
Grandpa-nice, we cleaned the hall together
Ben-very nice, invited me to a party at his place on Friday

Becca came to see me and it was sweet. Next time I'll get you a discount but Marty gave me a look that scared the crap out of me so I didn't want to risk it. Also, too bad you couldn't see the cutie :/

Luckily it was a slow Friday

I also might be the youngest person who works there

Alex Goes Ca-poot

Uhhh so I guess this the end if me and Alex hanging out because his girlfriend doesn't approve. I want to say dudes on a short leach but I suppose they're in a different place than I've ever been, considering they've been together a while and their age. It still sucks, but not too much.

I feel like I almost predicted it with my dream... spooky

Silver fox

I went to Alex's band, The Cloth Sea, practice last night. I got really lost and had to call a few times for directions, which was embarrassing. Alex lives with his brother and his girlfriend and I think that's it. They're nice. I talked to the girlfriend and she graduated and is about to start school to be a lawyer. She was sweet and I'm glad we talked. They also have a Dachshund named Sheriff and she's absolutely adorable, but apparently has a problem peeing when she get too much 'Sheriff time'. I thought I was late but Andrew didn't come til a little bit later. Andrews the other kid who works at the plasma place and he's pretty cute/nice, which surprises me because at first glance I though he was a major douche. Alex was nice but I ended up spending more time with Andrew and he invited me out with them after the show on Monday. Alex was talkative but possibly kind of nervous. He's also so tiny! Like a stick in tight pants, a bit of girly shirt and a beard that just pulls the whole thing together. But it's cute. I think he might have been trying to impress me, which I don't mind. Alex and Andrew are cool but they invited this other kid they work with who doesn't fit in at all, and they openly said they brought him for the jokes. This is mean but dude needs to take a hint. There was also this girl named Sam. She's nice and pretty and I think her and Alex had a thing because I got 'the vibe' but for once I didn't get filled up with jealously. It was mature of me and I think everyone would've thought less of me if I had. It felt good. Alex's band was good, which kind of surprised me. Their house is all nice and clean which makes me more embarrassed of my place and the fact that I puked in their garbage. Hey, the bathroom was busy and it had to come out. I got way too drunk. Luckily Andrew gave me a ride home kinda early so I didn't get the chance to pass out on a couch (like I always do). He didn't want to give me a ride at first but I didn't really pressure him so I don't feel bad. Alex gave me a hug when I left, and I couldn't tell what kind of hug it was but it was nice all the same.

I woke up with the worst hang over of my life, or at least top three. Alex texted me and said he had fun and that we should hang out again. Sweet. And I found out he graduated high school in '04, thanks to my skills. That's not too bad, hopefully

Regrets for the night:
Not getting there sooner/Making Becca late
Smoking too many cigs
Not being more confident
Drinking too much
Puking in their kitchen garbage, ew
Not talking to Alex more (?)

I think I might have a thing for old men and it kinda weirds me out. I always imagined I would end up with an older guy but, as usual, real life feels/turns out different than in my dreams. I feel embarrassed of my age which is ridiculous and only makes it more awkward. I am who I am and there's nothing I can do to change it, so why be embarrassed? I try to embrace this but I still have doubts. Why do they like me, do I go for the perverts? Maybe the problem is I'm clinging too much to my youth. I've always tried to rush and grow up faster but at the same time always assumed I'd stay young (if that makes sense). When I think of future myself, I imagine a beautiful classy lady with a smooth skin and a youthful laugh. Like one of those ladies that works better in her older age, more happy, put together and overall more attractive. In reality my laugh is ridiculous and my skin is not smooth now, so odds are that it is only going to get worse. I am probably going to end up an ugly, wrinkly, bitter, old woman. I pity the fool that ends up marrying me.

Becca left this morning and I miss her already. We don't see each other all that much, but just the fact that I can't makes me miss her. I can see her whenever, whereas Aaron can't so I suppose it's only fair and I'm sure she'll have fun. Aaron wins this battle but I'll get the next one